Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in Eccentric Beauty's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, December 11th, 2002
12:38 pm	An Entry of Appreciation Last night while I was on the shuttle with some friends, there was a Coldplay song on the radio, one from their new album, Clocks I believe. Well I love this song of course and sitting there riding around in the dark it was so simply beautiful and nice to hear, like and old friend was singing to me. I turned to Teresa and said Hey listen Teresa, it's my friend. "Oh really Robin?, do you KNOOOWW him, do you talk to him on the phone???, etc etc *lol* I smiled and yes Yes, yes I do! Hehehe it was silly funny but it made me happy for some reason. I have a lot of emotional investment in Coldplay, and I realized because of their mellow tone, which I have not been in much latley, I haven't listened to them much. But this morning I decided to listen to them and ya I just love Coldplay, they are sooo awesome and they make me happy and alive. Course I always feel alive, even when I am sad. The most annoying mood of all is when I am feeling blah, nothing, and whenever I am in that it only takes like 24 hours to get out of. So hmmm the point of all this? Go out and buy the new Coldplay album!, because they know how to make a beautiful melody. Hehehe ya. So go!, go go go! Current Mood: Tranquil Current Music: Coldplay (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 8th, 2002
11:05 pm	The 11th Commandment College certinaly exposes you to a lot of people whom you had no idea existed. This was displayed in an a very unecessary manner tonight when I was up snacking in the Sequoia Room. They were giving away free snacks and after a solid 6 hours of studying sitting down and dipping Oreos in milk was a such a wonderful moment. However, it had to be interrupted by a girl whom I have seen before, a girl who showed up in my doorway a few weeks back asking if I wanted to go to Bible study. (I politley declined of course, no matter how tempted I was to say, Sorry, I worship Satan.) This girl is a skinny little Asian thing with a high pitched voice that is reminiscient of a cartoon charcter. She would probably be a squirrel or something of the sort. She is overly enthusastic, enveloped in her little world of community service and prayer sessions, one of those people you can tell spends the majority of their day thinking about whether to make the invitations to Christmas mass red or green. So anyway. This irrepressiably irritating individual decided to sit down next to me about half way through my Oreo session. She grabbed a game board on the table and asked "wanna play?" as she was already in the process of taking everything out. I thought my silence would discourage her but it did not, so I mentioned that I would preferr not to engage in any activity right now that required any kind of brain activity whatsoever. "Oh come on" she said. "It's not that hard." Just by chance or maybe by a previously planned plot she happened to pull out a questionaire card about the 10 commandments. (It was probably the latter.) "Can you name the 10 commandments?" she sqeuaked. I repsonded that I probably could if I wanted to, but I only cared about my Oreos at the moment. Despite the total lack of any eye contact whatsoever on my part, she persisted. "Common, the creator gave you a highly developed brain so you can eat and think at the same time, chew and double dip at the same time, ya?" I actually started to laugh at her at this point, although I think she completey missed what was funny. So she decided to read them off to me herself. After she was done, she was like wait, that is not what number 7 is, this thing is wrong....we need a Bible..."Do you have a Bible?" she asks me. I laughed to myself and say no, I do not have a Bible, and then try to continue on with my Oreo eating by pretending to watch the sports show on TV. "Do you like Football?", she asks, insisting on trying to find a funnel to my soul. "No, I hate it, it's the most boring, stupid sport in existence." She then tried for a couple moments to argue that baseball, in fact, is the most boring, stupid sport in existence, but was interrupted when hallejuiah, one of her fellow do-gooders came along with the clean up bag and she went off with them to help out. I was down to only two Oreos with which I could give my undivided attention. However, her endeavors were not totally unsuccessful in getting me to consider some aspects of divine truth; as she was reading the commandments off to me, I thought of one that seriously needs to be added: # 11: Thou shalt not insist on annoying the hell out of Robin whilst she is trying to bond with her Oreos. While she was reading the already existing ones off to me I considered mentioning this addition to her when she was done and perhaps squeezing in a violation of commandment 3, which is probably the stupidest of them all, but the decent, nice and emotionally balanced side of me won over and I wasn't so affrontly rude to her. It sure would have been fun though. To top it off while cleaning up the place she threw away my drink. That just forced me to go get another one, fill it all the way up, take one sip and throw it away. See what a waste of energy and massly reproduced soda attempting to convert people can be? She could have spent that time giving herself an incredible orgasm, I think God would have been much more approving of that than the interruption of my personal food orgasms. Oh well, maybe one day a strapping, squirrel sqeaking nihilist will come into her life and change everything for her. We can only hope. Current Mood: cynical Current Music: Some random rock song on MTV (evil channel) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 6th, 2002
3:20 pm	I Will Be Smater than the Box! Got a friend of mine a Christmas present today on campus which came with a little cardboard box that you fold over all the flaps on the top to keep it shut. I took it out to look at it and then discovered I couldn't figure out how the hell to put those flaps back together so that the box was completey closed. At first I thought it wasn't possible then remembered that there was a way I just had to figure it out. I messed with it for like 3 minutes on the shuttle until, finally, I was triumphant! I squealed with joy. I had defeated the box! When I was walking towards my dorm somewhere around 15 minutes later, I saw a friend of mine who has had a bit of trouble with our Muir40 class walking very quickly toward the HSS building with a folder in his hand, off to turn it in a whole 15 minutes late (which actally is pretty bad they cut it off right at the hour.) I said to myself, walkin' fast huh?, yeah you better, boy if I were you I would start runnnin!, and just as I finished my sentence he broke into a jog *lol* and I laughed because it was verry funny. Sometimes it's the small things that make it all worth while. :) Current Mood: good Current Music: Still Waiting - Sum 41 (Comment on this)
11:31 am	I Hate My Uterus I came up with a little song...I imagine it being sung to the tune of "I Love my Computer" by Bad Religion...which is a rather cute little song. I hate my uterus It's always in the way It starts excreting fluid Once every 30 days I hate my uterus It takes up too much room It fills all up with blood And shoots it out as goo And it's always been oh so usless... Yeah it's always been oh so pointless... All I need to do Is fertilize you And you will make one of those freaky creatures And you keep trying to do it all the time I wish I could just snap my fingers and wish That you would go away. (Die uterus, die, Die uterus, die) I hate my uterus It cramps and causes pain Tell me what from this Do women have to gain I hate my uterus It produces milkly gel Why it ruins my panties I never can quite tell And it's always been oh so useless... Yeah it's always been oh so pointless... All I need to do Is fertilize you And you will make one of those freaky creatures And you keep trying to do it all the time I wish I could just snap my fingers and wish That you would go away. Go Away! Current Mood: good Current Music: Little Girls - Oingo Boingo (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 5th, 2002
11:08 am	Sin.......Yummy :) What would life be without sin? I'll tell you what: crappy. Let's revert back for a moment to one of my basic truths: Basic truth #10: Mother Theresa was a wonderful woman, but if the world only consisted of people like her, we would all want to shoot ourselves. Now let me define what I am referring to when I say "sin". I am not referring to anything that brings suffering to anyone else, ie murder rape etc etc. What I am talking about are the little and not so little things that constitute our personalities, that bring spice and pleasure into our existence. Let's clarify right now that I feel we are on this world to be kind to each other and live our lives the best, most moral way we can. I just think that there is nothing morally wrong with the majority of what I call "trivial sin". A good example is what Boingo nicely calls "nasty habits". Masterbation, vulgararity, the porn on your internet that no one knows you look at...all that great stuff. Could you imagine if all the average college student ever really used their computer for was researching? In everyone that is interesting there is a little something that is not embraced by main stream society that is sinfully amusing or enjoyable. Sinful thoughts that can't help but cause laughter in you is another good example. Take dead baby jokes for example. I think we can all agree that dead baby jokes are damn funny. So ok we can't, but hell, I sure think they are. Does this mean that somewhere inside me there is a small part of me inhabitated and/or being taken over by Satan where I would actually derive pleasure out of a dead baby? Of course not. I just have the perspective to find such horrible, socially wrong things absoutley hilarious. Here's my favorite one: Teresa: Hey Robin, what's the difference between a rock and a dead baby? Robin: Common Teresa, that's an easy one, you can't fuck a rock. I nearly passed out laughing to that the first time I heard it. It's just so wrong. Awesome. Another good example is Tom Green going to a varmista (sp?) dressed as Hitler. Now even I think that is going to far. That is just not right and he shouldn't have done it. But God damn it, the thought still makes me laugh, even if I feel a bit guilty about it. People who think we can't have these kind of thoughts without doing some damage to ourselves or others must be referring to the bulk of humanity that does not have the intelligence to seperate funny because it is thought up humorously between not funny because it's real and serious. Or maybe it's not so much lack of intelligence in humans since many people find these type of things funny, maybe it's just warped and frightened Christian thought. How about the occasional mean joke? Ever been in the elevator with another organism which supposedly has the same brain mass as you and have this little smile on your face on the way because you've jsut shot him down in your mind in such a clever way that you can't really justify it?, since you don't even know him? Wouldn't that be considerded sinful? Or what about that manipulative evil girl you made all those jokes about? I know I've made plenty of them, mean ones too. But it's always with a smile because it's my precious little delight, and I feel no need to say it their faces and hurt them because what would that do for me? I am not deriving pleasure of hurting someone else but from the realization I have of my position in relation to them. Their behavior then becomes ridiculous and you delight in your little secret - that you understand something that they don't, that in the most subtle ways, you are a threat to their sad, sorry little world. Is this kind of delight sinful, accroding the Christian idea of the term? Of course. And except for this occasional inappropriate indulgence, I will never condemn myself for it. Why should I?, it does not hurt anyone else and gives me and my friends a giggle, and besides, most of the time it is true anyway. Not everyone and everything in this world is happy and perfect and should be loved by everyone equally. Everyone has someone out there who will love them, and everyone has someone out there who will be laughing at them as they go up the elevator. This is preciseley because we are not all the same. Which is the second great part about trivial sin. It makes us different. If we were all the same of anything, from Hitler to Mother Theresa, the world would be ohhh so crappy. Imagine a world without evil? We would all just go skipping around all day with a smile on our faces and not a inappropriate thought at all. And you know what would happen then?, so many of things we love would cease to exist. Deep or significant thought, intelligent thought, diversity, creativity, imagination....weeeee down the drain. Who would want to live in a world like that? I certainly wouldn't. The exact same is true for larger, more substantial "sin". Like selfishness and vanity. I am a fan of selfishness myself, seeing that I am ridiculously selfish. Actually, I am not so sure I am selfish as self CENTERED more correctly. I am not a very greedy person, I will choose to not go to my restraunt pick to appease others, I will give someone money to buy some food, (but don't you think you can eat MY food, that is one area I am as greedy as an animal) I will let you borrow anything you need, I will make sure that Mums is happy with the movie we are going to and I'll check to make sure my friend has enough blankets to snuggle with. But as far as larger issues, like the environment, 3rd world countries, the errors of society, the greed of capitalism, the corruption of government etc etc...it's hard for me to really care much. And why? Because I and everyone I love are going along just fine and happy in the way the system is, which allows us on basis of our determination to be happy or to not be happy. Obviously there are problems, but for the most part, they are not messing with me or any of my loved ones. So although I care and think they need to be addressed, do I spend any of my energy worrying or working on them? Of course not. I've got my own life to live and so far I can do it just fine. Now if everyone was like this the structure of our world would fall apart, of course. But everyone isn't. We have people out there who have huge hearts and are more interested in doing good than in observing and subtley, (like writing this) trying to improve it. They want to fix things. And that's awesome. But I'm sorry, it's just not who I am. So am I sinful? Suppose so. But hey, if I ever get rich, I'll give plenty of it away to charity. I just don't want to make it my life's work. Shoot me. Of course when it comes to humanity as a whole I am a realist and this explains much of my self centerdness. As far as I am concerned, the very nature of man prevents completely the possibility of a world without starving people, dictatorships, injustice, corrupt government, and so on and so on. Luckily I live in a great place where most of that is dummed down and I can't write stuff like this on here without getting shot by some fundamental religious reigme. And for that I am thankful, and because of that I consider this the best place to be in the world. But anyway. A related "big" sin is vanity. Vanity is great fun as long as it is kept under check. It is one sin that can hurt you if you let it get out of hand. But if not, you're just left with loving who you are and being deliciously comfortable in your own skin. I will end with a little thought from Ben Franklin :), this program was on PBS so I do not know if it is a direct quote, (an actor spoke it) but in all liklihood it is. Anyways here it is, from a man who did good for people not because he wanted to save the world, but because he enjoyed improving things. "Some people think vanity is an evil. I don't think so. I think vanity is one of the great comforts of life." Embrace diversity! P.S. If you agreed or related to any of this, I highly recommend you download and look at the lyrics to "Insanity" by Oingo Boingo. Danny says it better than anyone. Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: Star Guitar - Chemical Brothers (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 4th, 2002
10:19 pm	HAPPY!!!!!!!!! I am so happy right now!, woo I am feeling the happy juice! I have had some moments of clairty today!, like it has all made sense to me today!, and I know what I want to do!, I know what I feel! I am so happy. :) I am feeling like a beautiful bouncing, dancing container of glitter and Christmas joy. :) And to top it off, I discovered my current theme song *lol* that totally reminds me of me and Teresa right now. Well tootles all. :) Growing in numbers Growing in speed Can't fight the future Can't fight what I see People they come together People they fall apart No one can stop us now 'Cos we are all made of stars Efforts of lovers Left in my mind I sing in the reaches We'll see what we find People they come together People they fall apart No one can stop us now 'Cos we are all made of stars People they come together And people they fall apart No one can stop us now 'Cos we are all made of stars Slow so slow come come Someone come come come Even love is a goin' 'round Bad noise goin' round Slowly rebuilding I feel it in me Growing in numbers Growing in peace People they come together And people they fall apart No one can stop us now 'Cos we are all made of stars People they come together People they fall apart No one can stop us now 'Cos we are all made of stars Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: We Are All Made of Stars - Moby (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 3rd, 2002
5:22 pm	The White Stripes So I have been listening to the White Stripes a considerable amoutn ever since I went on a downloading spree of their stuff looking for only one of their songs the other day. I never found the song *lol*, but I did download like 45 songs so far so maybe I just have not stumbled upon it yet. Anywayz I find that I really like their stuff, it's crazy werid and a super bunch of fun. I love the guy's voice and the chick on the drums is so awesome she totally knows how to rock out *lol* I have been addicted to new song by Pink for a lot of today!, I went to Playwriting, went to get an appointment to discover my spinal cord tumor, (damn thing it hurts) and then came home and slept!, finished up my play and talked to a few people. And now I am here!, typing out the incredibly boring dribble :), but that is cool cause I'm gunna jump up and down and rock out in my little dorm here!, whoo hoo!! *lol* I can't wait till I actually get to go to a rock out dance somewhere somehow, *sigh* I so need one! *lol* anywayz, I am off to go sail the wide accountant seas....;) Current Mood: crazy Current Music: I Love My Computer - Bad Religion (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 2nd, 2002
12:38 am	Woo Hoo here we go it's gunna be fun!! Hmmm welcome to my new and improved journal...if ya wanna see the old one, well, click on my homepage. :) This is BRIGHTER ain't it? Ya I like that about it. :) Anywayz I do not have anything particular to say right now, I have had random interesting thoughts running through my head all day which made me realize one of these is just a wonderfully necessary thing :), well not necessary but a ridiculous amount of fun really. :) Too bad no one is going to be reading it hehe, that's ok I am just going to have to work the Live Journal community like crazy. :) Well I am talking to so many people right now!, it is sweet!, but like I said there is nothing much else of any consequence at all whatsoever to say so I am off. Except to mention to the guy in my Muir40 class who's paper I had to suffer through today: MY GOD DID YOUR TEACHER NEVER TELL YOU THAT TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO TELL EM', TELL EM', AND THEN TELL EM' WHAT YOU TOLD THEM IS RETARDED!!, ELEMENTARY? THE INTRO AND CONCLUSION DO HAVE A STRUCTURE YOU KNOW!, EVER HEARD OF A KEYHOLE ESSAY? *sigh* *lol* I have become Ms. Ketelle right before my eyes. Hehe sweet. :) Tootles. Oh by the way I know most of you must not know what I am talking about when I mention certain things but um, too bad. :) Hehe ya... And my God, did you know there is a Beatles course offered at this college? Wow, get out, that is so beyond awesome. Eminem - Evil Man, why does he have to be so talented? *lol* Hopeless.... Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Eminem - The Eminem Show (Comment on this)